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6/29/08

Dead At You

This post is dedicated to Trisha.

First off let me start by saying I'm sorry and that I trust you. I know we've had a few fights--alright a lot of fights. But I want you to know that no matter how many fights we have I'll always care about you. Never tell yourself anything different. And don't cry about me. I'm nothing. Cry for yourself.

David--your friend for now and forever

6/27/08

Here We Go

Before I begin, let me slice this post up and tell you my side of this:

Too much stress lately. I've been working non-stop in school. No rest, really. Yes, I slept at somewhere 2:00 AM one time and then I woke back up at 6:00 AM which isn't a healthy thing. But don't get so worried about me, I'm not the naive type who gets sick so easily just because I lack too much sleep. And I won't post all about my school activities now, because I have to handle another matter at hand.

Now I'm worried about you.

This is all about David. I don't care if he reads this post or not, I just want to post it here. I own this blog and I do whatever I want to it. He doesn't believe me, he's starting to doubt about me. So what about it? After all, even if I tell the WHOLE Truth, he doesn't believe me. So what's the point there? I'm wasting my saliva.

No you're not. It's just that you've lied to me before and now I don't know what to believe.....

He wants to leave the oh-so fun AA? Then be it. Who cares if I will just cry? And I'm NOT acting, for sick people's sake!

I'm not leaving AA just because of you. No one can make me leave AA. I like it there.

And I'm not acting that I have oh-so 'mushy feelings' for him. So what? Is it wrong to have feelings? Probably so. So maybe I should stop having feelings for him. After all, if I really have feelings for him, then I'll probably just let him do whatever he wants. Your wish is granted now, David. Do whatever you want.

I want to be with you.....And I know you have feelings for me. And I want you to know that I really do care about you.

Nobody probably cares. Maybe it's just too late to confess now.. so I won't confess. If only he knew the stupid truth

Why don't you tell me the truth? Then I'll know it.

Lies

She lied to me. ME. The person that she claimed to have "feelings" for. Her pictures most likely don't have her in them. She acted all sad and afraid when I was thinking about leaving AA. Well I'm gonna do much worst than that. I'm staying on AA. I'm just not gonna talk to her until she tells me the truth. The truth, Trisha. You want to stay my friend, tell me the truth.

6/18/08

Oh!

I must have hurt Cherrie in some way. While on YM, I asked her to do me a favor. Turned out she already knew what I wanted. After telling me, she started talking about how she was a bad friend and how she shouldn't have told me. Then at the very end she said that I hated her.

I don't hate her! She's my friend. The only people I hate is my family. It's too complicated for me to explain. Well at least I now know what I wanted. And it was everything I'd hoped for! Now all I have to do is patch things up with Cherrie.

DVD

6/14/08

The Highlight of My Day

My friend and I are finally breaking the ice. I thought it was impossible, but I was wrong. Our friendship was built up from lies and secrets, but now we're finally beginning to trust one another. I love her so much......

DVD

6/12/08

What The?!?!

Things are getting weird. I've just realized that I don't get evil pride when I see or hear pain. Something else inside of me does! It calls itself Psy.

g2g

DVD

6/7/08

Phew!

It's possible that I was wrong. She's not going to end our friendship. I just hope this isn't some kind of sick joke. Now all I have to worry about is my braces.....DAMN!!

6/6/08

Ouch......

My pain is raging now. I love my friend, but she calls me a liar and says that I hate her. I want to tell her how I feel, but it always comes out wrong. I'm just an idiot. I can't even express myself to my friends. And now I'm about to lose her. No......NO! Not this time. I lost the other one like that.

Seems that I've already lost this one too, though. Too late to save it.....I've lost another friendship because of my own stupidity.

On top of this unbearable truth, my braces will stay on for another three to six months!

6/3/08

It's a New Day

Well this is great. Everything that's gone wrong is right. My life is finally going back to normal. I think I'll lay off some of my RPG's for a while later.

Sorry Trisha, but after our plots are finished, I'm going to take a break from AA. My characters will still be there, becuse I'll be coiming back. Please don't beg. For some reason it gives me evil pride to see you begging me to do something.